old post...

well i have a question to all the people who know me... who do you think i am... from what i know, i am a fun loving guy who can get down at times, but thats only at a very "normal" frequency,
its not surprising i should feel "not into the zone"...

this post i had started to write long back... never could finish because of the "mood" mentioned above... to sum it up it was a meet of old school friends where i really felt awkward... and the fact that i know it shouldn have been tht way, amplifies the stupid feeling all the more... to think of it there have been so many times when i felt like running away, just that there is almost always a better way to handle things, a better word i couldve been spoken instead of something that could crack a relation however remotely, a better line to start off a conversation with a girl i've been head over heels about for a long time, or just control my hand at the time, and my body, and my brain from shaking. A speech (no... not speech, they usually go really well because i usually have time to think before it.), a compering job that went haywire, a hindi debate (this one is already my favourite most embarrassing moment)... well... u got the idea...

but this was not embarrassment, it was just awkward... cant explain it really... uh... nevermind...

PS: I didn intend to do a chintan here... but u guys wont understand with all the guys n gals weird in their different ways (not all mind you), again... i shouldn be writing this...
PPS: get lost n come back when i post somethin else... i cant say it... not that i dont want to, but... uh... FFUUCKK...